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CURSE

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CHARACTER NAME

CHOSO

CIVILIAN NAME

RYOUTOKU, NORITOSHI

TEAM

REVELATION

HOUSING NUMBER

010

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[gimu]

[ a bubble of warmth, drifting to the surface. it has him ducking his head, wherever he is, examining the feeling. ]

thank you marcille
you, too, are good.
i am most grateful we met

[picky]

[ Her feelings tangle: guilt, confusion, frustration at herself, and happiness.

She herself is sitting on her bed, knees brought up to her chest, arms secured around them. She stares at her lap. ]

I'm grateful that we met too.
I heard you say that before too, when we were going to the onsen.
Is it really okay to say that I'm good? You and I really don't know each other that well.

[gimu]

i have seen what “evil” is like. how it acts. how it smiles. i have heard what it sounds like. i have seen the consequences of its passage.

you are none of those things.

if there was no goodness in you, we would not be having this conversation in the first place.

[picky]

[ She wipes her eyes on her wrist and sniffs. ]

What do you mean, "you've seen evil?"

1/?

[gimu]

[ this would be an excellent place to crap out and fall back on pleasant generalizations to soothe a sad heart, but choso knows nothing of these tricky steps in the dance of Real People Interaction.

so he sits up wherever he is, staring into space with a furrowed intensity while he pulls the memories from him like wreckage from a lake. ]

On October 31, 2018, a group of curses conspired to capture and seal away the greatest sorcerer of the era in hopes that by tipping the scales, humanity could be supplanted by curses. How much of this was true is unknown. In the ensuing battles, the lives of countless humans were los

[gimu]

were used as ammunition against this sorcerer, not in a bid to defeat him, but to push him into a corner, morally. These curs

[gimu]

we
killed an unknown number just in the course of leading him to the ideal placement for the seal.

after the goal was met, we were free to wander where we wished.

this is when yuji was driven t

[gimu]

when i pushed yuji to the brink of death

allowing the other curses to awaken the king of curses held in his body

[gimu]

which led to the destruction of a major ward of tokyo
and the deaths of the countless humans we trapped within it

evil has many faces marcille
yours is not one of them

1/2

[picky]

[ There's no answer for a minute because this is all understandably horrifying to read. Her expression darkens and twists the more messages pour in.

She needs some time to scroll back, reread everything, and try to fathom these situations with her limited knowledge. She connects events with what Yuji's told her. She tries to slot Choso into her visualizations and it's like threading the head of a needle with a piece of rope. ]

2/2

[picky]

Yuji told me about countless people dying because he couldn't control Sukuna...
This is what he was talking about, isn't it?

[gimu]

yes

1/2 dungeon meshi spoilers

[picky]

[ Marcille already has a traumatic relationship with death. Her whole body is tense, her eyes wide and afraid. The group of curses—Choso included, meaning he himself is a curse too, she realizes—did all of that. They wanted to wipe out humanity. In all of their efforts, lives were just numbers and a means to an end. Bile rises in Marcille's throat. A invisible weight crushes hard on her chest.

She thinks back to their first conversation. Choso knows and regrets his mistakes, and he'd said he'd killed countless people too. Marcille chose to accept him then anyway. This shouldn't be a surprise, should it? It hits harder because she has more context now, but it's clear that Yuji holds no malice for Choso at all, even blames himself for these deaths rather than the curses that goaded him. That alone tells her she may not have all of the details of the situation.

And hadn't Marcille killed the Canaries and others, if indirectly? Didn't she kill Mithrun with a direct blow to his head, set a stampede of monsters on the entire dungeon, thinking it all necessary steps to getting what she selfishly wanted?

Her panic slowly subsides the longer she thinks on it and draws on the few similarities they have. Even if it may be the smarter decision, she doesn't want to be afraid of him. She only wants redemption for herself. Why doesn't Choso deserve the same? ]

2/2

[picky]

[ She's crying now because of course she is. Thank goodness this is just through text so Choso doesn't have to hear her being snotty. ]

But that's not how you are anymore.
You all did this because you weren't free?

[gimu]

i did it for my brothers in the beginning

but by the time it happened i was just doing it for myself

[picky]

You hated people that much?

[gimu]

i never hated humans
i never hated curses, nor sorcerers nor curse users

i only wanted to see my brothers avenged, but i chose the road that killed them

[picky]

You wanted vengeance, but you think you were the one ultimately responsible for their deaths?
But you didn't do that on purpose, right? Something else killed them

[gimu]

yes

i got jumpscared by that icon

[picky]

But you still blame yourself?

:3c

[gimu]

yes.
we and yuji were meant to fight together, i see that now
but because of my decision, i let my precious brothers kill each other

[picky]

Because you wanted to be on Yuji's side?

[gimu]

i did not know he was my brother until i nearly killed him.
the reaction of my blood to his while he teetered on the precipice of death is what told me the truth of it.

maybe if i had chosen differently, there would be four of us here today.

[picky]

But why blame yourself for something you didn't know?
I'm not saying you and your brothers did nothing wrong but
Wouldn't you say the same thing to Yuji if he did what you did?

[picky]

[ She still needs to know about this blood thing eventually

She's putting a pin in that for now. ]