[ Marcille already has a traumatic relationship with death. Her whole body is tense, her eyes wide and afraid. The group of curses—Choso included, meaning he himself is a curse too, she realizes—did all of that. They wanted to wipe out humanity. In all of their efforts, lives were just numbers and a means to an end. Bile rises in Marcille's throat. A invisible weight crushes hard on her chest.
She thinks back to their first conversation. Choso knows and regrets his mistakes, and he'd said he'd killed countless people too. Marcille chose to accept him then anyway. This shouldn't be a surprise, should it? It hits harder because she has more context now, but it's clear that Yuji holds no malice for Choso at all, even blames himself for these deaths rather than the curses that goaded him. That alone tells her she may not have all of the details of the situation.
And hadn't Marcille killed the Canaries and others, if indirectly? Didn't she kill Mithrun with a direct blow to his head, set a stampede of monsters on the entire dungeon, thinking it all necessary steps to getting what she selfishly wanted?
Her panic slowly subsides the longer she thinks on it and draws on the few similarities they have. Even if it may be the smarter decision, she doesn't want to be afraid of him. She only wants redemption for herself. Why doesn't Choso deserve the same? ]
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She thinks back to their first conversation. Choso knows and regrets his mistakes, and he'd said he'd killed countless people too. Marcille chose to accept him then anyway. This shouldn't be a surprise, should it? It hits harder because she has more context now, but it's clear that Yuji holds no malice for Choso at all, even blames himself for these deaths rather than the curses that goaded him. That alone tells her she may not have all of the details of the situation.
And hadn't Marcille killed the Canaries and others, if indirectly? Didn't she kill Mithrun with a direct blow to his head, set a stampede of monsters on the entire dungeon, thinking it all necessary steps to getting what she selfishly wanted?
Her panic slowly subsides the longer she thinks on it and draws on the few similarities they have. Even if it may be the smarter decision, she doesn't want to be afraid of him. She only wants redemption for herself. Why doesn't Choso deserve the same? ]